POSITIVE PREGNANCY TEST THEN NEGATIVE! | MISCARRIAGE STORY | OUR ANGEL BABY’S DUE DATE! | PREGNANT

POSITIVE PREGNANCY TEST THEN NEGATIVE! | MISCARRIAGE STORY | OUR ANGEL BABY’S DUE DATE! | PREGNANT


truthfully I didn’t even really want to talk about it I have been feeling really down lately you only think that I have of my baby it’s the pregnancy test and I had many positive pregnancy tests [Music] good morning y’all I’m starting today’s vlog off a little bit different it is a little later in the day but I decided to not vote this morning for a few reasons mr. Jackson is playing what are you doing is it stuck it’s hurt yeah good job whoa yeah they don’t open but first before we get this video started I do want to say that if you are new here I am Heather and I’m pregnant with our baby number two our rainbow baby we did have two back-to-back miscarriages this year and it has been quite the journey I did get pregnant immediately after my last miscarriage so this pregnancy has been a little bit more different than with my son it has been a lot more stressful [Music] we added basically a lot of his toys were in the floor so we had a pickup up look at this little helper good job Wow I was not gonna make a video about this because I didn’t want to make anybody feel bad and truthfully I didn’t even really want to talk about it I have been feeling really down lately and there is a reason for that and I I didn’t want to talk about it I didn’t want to I just kind of wanted to keep it to myself but I am blessed with this platform and if I’m able to help someone else who is going through the same thing I’m going through then that’s what I want to do but I have been feeling really down lately and not really very happy and there is a reason so as I was saying earlier and as most of y’all know we had two back-to-back miscarriages earlier this year and then I immediately got pregnant again with our baby girl and I am due in December but the other two babies do matter to me and it breaks my heart that I never got to meet them I know that someday I will it just it hurts and what bothers me is that my the first baby that we lost she would have been do he or she would have been due in September and because I gave birth to my son Jackson two weeks early it’s putting me really close to that time right now where I could have given birth to her safely a little bit earlier and it does bother me and that’s really why I’m been upset lately and just haven’t really been myself is because I just know that this is it’s coming her due date and it really does hurt to know that I didn’t get to experience that with her and I didn’t get to bring her into this world I didn’t get to hold her in my arms it is it’s really hard to do it and I definitely mourn the loss of both fur babies we named our first angel baby Ariel Ariel Emery and she is so special to me and I say she because I had a good feeling she was a girl but I really wasn’t sure it was an early miscarriage but that is what I felt talking about this is making me feel better I’ve been keeping this to myself for a while just because I didn’t want to I don’t know I just I don’t know I just didn’t want to talk about it because it is hard to talk about but I really want to do I really want to bring awareness that pregnancy loss having a miscarriage no matter when it was whether it was at three weeks or twenty weeks it is still a loss and it still hurts it is still loss and it still hurts and of course any pregnancy loss infant loss no matter when it was it hurts I know moms who lose their baby’s full-term and that’s I I’m so sorry it it’s not an easy thing to go to Surrey I really want to bring awareness to this and I really want anybody who is struggling right now please know that you were not alone and you were very very very strong and I don’t want you to give up faith I don’t want you to blame yourself I don’t want you to blame anybody it really isn’t anybody’s fault sometimes things just happen and I know personally for me personally for me my miscarriages were due to me being low in progesterone and that’s just the pregnancy hormone that keeps a pregnancy going if you are having early miscarriages that is one thing I would check because there is medicine for that and you can get help for any type of infertility and I do urge anybody who is struggling to come to talk to their doctor talk to the OBGYN talk to specialists and tell them everything that’s going on and ask them for help that’s what I did when I had my second miscarriage that’s what I did and that’s why I have my baby girl but sometimes medicine doesn’t help and I understand that too and I just want you to know that you are very very strong and you were very brave and I never I know I never imagined I would ever have a miscarriage when long – that’s why I didn’t go to the doctor the first time it happened or I didn’t do for my follow-up because I really didn’t think it would happen twice and I know that if I hadn’t have followed what the good Lord said told me he I basically I prayed for him to guide me into the right direction and it was very evident that I was supposed to go to my doctor and that’s when they put me on the progesterone and I have no doubt if I hadn’t did that I probably would have lost this baby as well and that scares me and this pregnancy has been really hard because I wake up every day scared but now that I am further along it is getting easier to not worry as much because I am past the miscarriage stage and we are at viability as well so if I was to give birth she does have a chance it is just a very hard thing to deal with and I I I’m just I never expected this to ever happen and it’s it’s very common it happens a lot to a lot of people which is really unfortunate and it breaks my heart when I see comments from y’all where you are going through a miscarriage I recently got a comment that someone was going through a miscarriage in it it breaks my heart the only thing that I have of my baby besides the memories of just holding the baby so close and feeling so happy it’s the pregnancy test and I had many positive pregnancy tests for both of our babies and it just breaks my heart I never showed this to y’all but my uncle actually sent this to me him and his wife and I just think it’s so beautiful and really represents so much and it is a good reminder that our babies are with the good I will always always always remember our two other babies that we never really got to meet I will always have a place in my heart for them I will and though I may not talk about them much it’s because it’s hard to talk about because they mean so much to me every time I think about what happened I get knots in my stomach because it it makes me very sick I’m very thankful for our baby girl that we have and I’m thankful for those babies as well and I’m glad I got to talk about this with y’all because it makes me feel better and I hope from the bottom of my heart that I am able to help anybody who may be going through this right now I know my videos are very pregnancy focused my videos used to be trying to conceive and miscarriage and I’m sorry if that has annoyed anybody it’s just that I truly was just trying not to be too worried about this pregnancy and also I want to enjoy this pregnancy I think y’all so much for watching our videos I’m not finished with this video yet but I do want to thank y’all so much for the support y’all do mean the world to me and I look so forward to making videos for y’all and seniors comments and messages it really does mean a lot if there’s any way that I can help you if you have had a miscarriage or if you are struggling to conceive leave me a comment down below of a video suggestion you would like me to do whether that is how to get pregnant after a miscarriage how to get pregnant I also wanted to do a video about my diet when we were trying to Seve in the month that i conceived and just let me know because I really want to help y’all out because y’all help me out every day and I love y’all y’all look else my vices are you a smarty pants hey Joe’s got this puzzle out of his bedroom and brought it in here to our bedroom yes B what is that ah see where does that go we’re to C go yeah yeah yeah you smarty Fez you were to say smart K for kangaroo where’s it go go yeah good Joe loose and what was that a for alligator let me see t for tre Joe and look how cute that crew is like I’m Q Sakura’s Jackson that is the cutest girl I’ve ever seen in my life I seriously love his curly hair I don’t want to swim I don’t want to cut his hair short I did trick y’all notice but this hair is shorter yeah I cut his hair to be honest I was a little worried that his higher didn’t look good because I trimmed it just recently and it kind of was real frizzy but today it’s looking really good I’m not sure why sometimes his hair is like looks really conditioned and smooth and sometimes his hair is really frizzy I’m not sure well sometimes when he sleeps he maybe sweats and it might sit a little more frizzy my hair is always frizzy Shane should be getting home very soon we’re just kind of waiting for him right now I was editing tomorrow’s thumbnail for elephant are you volunteered look at his back oh I left like eight o’clock and now it’s ten o’clock how many hours is that like 14 hours okay well I’m not trying to go to bed earlier today – good I’ve been staying up really late editing videos and okay today shadow is gonna go to sandy and she said during the gender review I remember Shane saying I wonder how long these decorations will stay up laugh out loud I noticed that they’re still up and I was wondering where y’all live well we live oh yes and we live where do we will Shane we live in the south we haven’t really specified where we will because of personal reasons but it is in the South big shock but I don’t think anybody that knows bad or virtual baby shower yeah when we do the baby shower and when we do the Phaedo box yeah but right now I just don’t really want to say because for personal reasons and also about the decorations are they still up they are still up and probably gonna stay up way after Jackson’s well might come down by Jackson’s perfect I’m even going to take them down now if you want but I just think they’re pretty and I always leave the decorations up because I think they’re pretty and I want them to last longer than just a day oh yeah but don’t three years it’s a little excessive oh my gosh well he’s balloon his bonus to one of your birthday balloon it’s gonna stay up it’s terrible it’s always on thick and smooth put a lot of effort into it and I just I just want to display it a long time but we could go ahead and take it down if we want to but it’s not really that big probably gonna stay up to about a birthday party okay my very favorite baby shower alright thank y’all so much for watching today’s video we really appreciate it and if you haven’t yet we would love for you to subscribe to our Channel and turn your notifications on so you can get our notifications so you can be notified every time we upload we do upload every day let me know in the comments below if you like those uploading daily and if you have a specific time that you would want us to upload because right now I’ve been trying to do it around two o’clock and I don’t know if that works out for everybody or not so please let me know if you would like if you would like me to do it earlier or later if you liked today’s video we would love for you to share it 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